the fact of the matter is i'm bloody bored with my current project.. and i've been stuck with the same PM for the last 2 years.. ahaha just show what a loyal staff i am... curent project ni tak banyak IT related but mostly soft skills and training.. which is so not me.. i dont bloody care if the staff dont know how to say hello properly or the staff can't dress properly to conduct sales ahahaha.. maybe sbb i dont have the sales experience i dont bloody well care.. i prefer a more technical project.. which is so diff frm my current PM direction. she is so bloody scared of the term technical... so tell me what shud i do.. ??? why cant i move away frm her ??? some ppl said i'm a handbag... HATE that term.. but i can't deny lah.. she can't move without me around... bosan bosan bosan.. and i did mention this to my boss... he said ok i can change but i'm scared it doesnt happen fast enough to my liking.. i cant live another 3 months doing this training shit !!!! as a PM she's good.. she'll fight her ass for your promotions and bonuses... hehe she is LOUD.. with all the capital letter ahahaha... and even 2 of the directors are scared of her... ahahah kena jerkah ngan dia mau tak terkedu wakakakaak... ntah lah am i asking for too much ....
2nd fact is regarding my leave.. biasalah project office ni.. live and die by deadlines and timelines.. every delay is a bloody cost to the project.. and what sux is they can't gimme the deadline upfront for me to plan my holidays.. this year dah burn my Krabi trip.. sedih kan... kalau tukar dept its more stable and i can plan my time as everything is fixed.. dates for the report to be extracted every month, date for the report to be out every month.. they might have some ad hoc but i can handle that... so cam mana tu... as for career wise staying here is a better options.. dont think i can go anywhere if i transfer back.. but am i a career girl ??? sometimes i dont think i know myself... !!! the whole reason why i have all these questions in my head... it all come back to one BIG question.. WHAT DO I WANT ... and why do i keep getting the answer it doesnt matter... idiot !!!if it doesnt matter i wudnt have done anything about it at the 1st place kan.. hmmm....
I have list out the pros and cons.. i went back to the place where it all begin.. and think can i go thru it all again.. the same thing everyday... currently too much is rocking the boat and uncertainty and it makes the routines looks comforting.. like a big old blanket... comfortable and familiar.. thats what i was thinking.. going back to prev dept with a new boss.. reason i left b4 was the boss it was never because of the work or the colleague.. they're the best ehehe :-)
dah istikarah for a few days... tp hr ni ilham lain esok ilham lain ehehe.. so tak make any decision yet ahahaha.. and time is running out on me... HR is pushing me.. need to make a decision soon .. confuse confuse.. and my parents pun different opinion ehehe.. and at the end its up to me since i'm the one who is going thru it.. hubby pun sama not helping much aahaha :-)...
restless... i'm a restless soul.. maybe after almost 3 years i'm getting restless..
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